Love and the Infinite, Healing from Childhood
A New England Scholar writes about his spiritual quest and awakening from early childhood abuse by parents who suffered from emotional challenges. Raised in a seemingly normal Catholic middle-class home and family in Massachusetts near urban Boston, the author describes parental measures of strict discipline and how it was the order of the day, with spankings and thrashings carried out by his father under ‘orders’ from his mother. For him as a small child, there was an almost constant atmosphere of fear and punishment. He was shuttled between schools: back and forth between public schools, military schools, and various Catholic schools where corporal punishment was the ‘regular order of the day.’ He sums up his childhood with two words on collective feelings from all his early childhood: total humiliation.
In writing this book, the author’s goal is to help people that have endured their own sufferings of abuse at the hands of another and to help them unravel any damaging and lasting effects that these early traumas have had on their subsequent adult lives. The damaging effects of early childhood traumas are very complex. The author gives people practical and simple guidance toward healing with inspiration, insight, and creation of one’s spiritual reawakening.
As a parent and husband, the author admits that he withdrew at times in his own first marriage and the raising of his children. The effect of his own somewhat tattered upbringing and their negative effects carried over into his adult life, and how he raised his children. The suffering wrought on so many children in the world at the hands of parents and caretakers renders unconscionable and dramatic effects that are often lifelong. The tragedy of these effects is that with most people’s entire lives there is often no exit from the damaging, negative effects resulting from these early sufferings. Through a series of worldly-based and spiritual strategies, he offers help to deal with the after-effects of child abuse. “Love and The Infinite, Healing from Childhood” by Bill Dunn Jr. invites readers to free one’s bonds and fears from the distant past abuse to life with healing through the power of awareness, healing strategies, and guided meditations to enlighten and awaken new consciousness through a Higher Power.
Summary & Highlights of
“Love and the Infinite, Healing from Childhood”
by Bill Dunn Jr.
Preparatory Thought and Meditation: Can you fathom through imagination and awareness, of something so sweet, fresh, precious, innocent, and little in all its loving beauty and glory, having just come from the warm protective cocoon of its mother’s womb? Having just arrived here in a totally new, threatening, and strange place, towered over by images of large and very strange-looking beings, with the loving touch/contact of one image in particular (mother) and total dependence on her for ‘nourishment’, acceptance, trust, kind treatment, and unending love. Before mother’s womb, this tiny packet of love’s prior existence was embellished in Infinite Love’s glory, euphoric pleasure, acceptance, and permanence, without any concern, fear, nor doubt for its’ protection there, nor any possibility for Love’s loss, denial, or even question.
Things seem so different here: this newly arrived tiny package does not feel safe nor have that ‘assurance of love’, nor protection that it always felt and had before in its Infinite State of existence. This new little being feels ‘separated’ and ‘alone’ in the Universe, at the same time very ‘fearful’. Indeed, this seems so strange and scary. Besides in its present very small and undeveloped physical state, it is unable to do anything to sustain or protect itself at all. ‘See me as I am now: so little, helpless, fearful, cold, hungry…things that were not true back in my past Infinite State: instead, there I had all the comforts and was surrounded with unquestioned love. I find myself here crying out so very often, feeling so lonely, threatened, and fearful in an alien world. Part of me (my Infinite Spirit) reflects on and calls forth from whence I have recently come to please return, restore, protect, and love me as I once was’…
To Myself: Though my intent was to write this work to help others, I found out along the way that it was also to love and help myself. I must re-program my mind away from the joyless early-in-life past, toward the twilight years of my life that manifests joy for the little child still within me that has survived all these years! I AM remaking that lost child into a happy one!
The Background Behind Child Abuse
As an overview of the book, “Love and the Infinite, Healing from Childhood”, basically explores the several dimensions of Love: (1) conditional (if you do this and that for me I’ll love you, but if you don’t I won’t) vs. (2) unconditional (I accept you for all that you are, no matter what you have endured, what you have, or what you’ve done), vs. (3) Infinite (a love that is immensely greater than any love in this life, that is limitless, boundless, untrammeled, and everlasting, which never can be taken away like love is in this life). The loves of this life (conditional and unconditional, including romantic) depend upon a giver and a receiver, meaning that love here in this life can be taken away in an instant, whereas Universal Infinite Love always was, is now, and will be, and doesn’t have to be ‘earned’ or ‘lost’ like love is in this life.
This is a work that focuses on the good and kind love called parental or maternal love that all of us are supposed to have upon our entry into this life as babies, infants, and children. But this sharply contrasts for many of us with the reality of love denied in our earliest years via abuse and mistreatment, manifesting physical and/or emotional traumas with devastating after-effects often sustained throughout our childhood and adulthood years. The work delves into both worldly and spiritual healing solutions to adult damages resulting from childhood traumas suffered during the victim’s early years. It really focuses on the need to completely re-program the very complex to understand negative-oriented thought patterns that become inculcated or locked in the developing child’s mind from this abuse, which often destructively follow these victims well into their adult years.
Of course, we want to give all good credit to those of us who came from basically good parentage where we were treated throughout our childhood experience with all due respect, love, and appreciation as to just who we were back then. Meaning that despite being little and growing, we were treated as if we were full-grown adults with all due respect, and were not denigrated for being small, learning, and evolving, even though we were still achieving reaching that level as children. A happy child from a well-treated background radiates upon the world a happy, trustful, and productive attitude, which in turn radiates back to the person as a positive reward in feelings of usefulness and appreciation.
But for many of us, this clearly was not the case, as the child (as a child) went through a long track record of various abusive experiences during its early years which very clearly did not make it happy, nor set it up for an adult life where it automatically radiated a love and kindness clearly evident by others, or to itself. Conflict, confusion, fear, angst, lack of peacefulness, rage, and even physical and/or mental health problems often overshadow many adult lives for those who lacked fair and just parental treatment during their earliest years.
I can distinctly remember when I was young (i.e., age 4 to 6), lying in my bunkbed worrying and fearful over Mother’s next set of difficult, criticizing, or unloving words that were sure to be headed my way. Mother had a difficult pregnancy carrying me, and never ceased to remind me of that throughout childhood, plus she suffered over my father’s escapades outside her marriage which she also seemed to take out on me. I was intensely fearful over the next negative, critical, or ‘corrective’ words that were sure to be coming my way since I clearly knew Mother was not happy with me at all, in that she always seemed to be angry and cross with me. The slightest thing would set her off negatively toward me. Dad would often warn me: ‘Billy, she’s on the warpath after you again, look out!
Subsequently, phobic fears, angst, and unrealistic imaginations followed me throughout my adult life, such as: (1) dreaded fear of certain strong-willed females I have crossed paths with; (2) fear while being away on a vacation that something bad would happen to the place I lived in; (3) imagining that all sorts of folks (i.e., police or neighbors) were constantly watching me; (4) imaginative and unrealistic love-seeking scenarios.
When we are very young, we are most vulnerable to picking up patterns from memories because, from a survival standpoint, we are most prone via evolution processes to involuntarily imbed behaviors that supposedly best help us to survive and develop into adulthood. The reality is that early-on-in-life experiences (early childhood) occur while the imperfect human mind is rapidly developing towards its full capabilities, creating an ‘inculcation’ memory process, whereby repeated and dominant early-in-life experiences, good or bad, become ‘locked-in’ or ‘hard-wired’ into each child’s developing mind. This results in producing a ‘tonality’ or ‘impression of life’ (up or down), significantly impacting a person’s thinking and feelings throughout their entire adult life.
Three words typify the after-effects of child abuse: (1) Stigma (abuse sticking mentally with the person for life); (2) Insidiousness (bad thoughts of the prior abuse sneak up on the person in adult years); (3) Denial (a person completely turns away from past abuse realities).
Human evolution developed a process in the (imperfect) brain or mind from primal-based life over the last million or so years up to the very recent past to respond to an almost constant-state threat to life survival. Responses to sustained fear-based trauma threats were particularly inculcated into child-rearing practices then, which were immediate, non-negotiable, and often brutal, which over eons have been carried over into modern child-rearing practices.
Although modern man has much less constant-state threats to life, primal responses to fear can be ‘re-awakened’, ‘re-fired, or ‘re-charged’ under modern-life threats of repeated or sustained childhood traumas or abuse. These primal-based responses often stay lit in an ‘ember-burning mode’, just below conscious awareness long after the modern trauma threat has ended, only to ‘re-surface’ years later in the person’s adult life as troubled, negative, or violent tendencies/reactions (e.g., PTSS) to ordinary life situations, as if the person were still engaged with sustained threat conditions in their past abusive state, or back in the primitive state of life eons ago.
Mistreatment of children is a worldwide phenomenon amongst all classes of people and cultures, both in the past and present, involving literally billions of people throughout human history. This topic is hugely denied, avoided, and pushed aside by almost all people, classes, societies, and cultures throughout all of history up to the present day. Why? (1) The 4th Commandment, ‘honor thy father and mother’ (no matter what they do to you); (2) the rights of power of the parent over the child; (3) biological attachment (origin) of children to parents; (4) fear and pain for the victim over revealing and facing the follow up emotional pain from memories of the former physical and/or mental abuse; (5) the ‘family’ as the ‘Sacred Cow’ in all of civilization.
Two experts who have worked on and written about child abuse issues are discussed in the work: (1) Dr. Bruce Perry, and (2) Dr. Alice Miller.
Dr. Perry’s mainstay opinion is that fear and repeated trauma seriously affect the developing child’s brain (or mind), and very often this reflects the world they were brought up in, namely fear, chaos, and trauma. These alter the normal development of neural systems that must respond to unnatural stresses, causing life-dependent alterations with normal responses to threats, which often leads to serious emotional, cognitive, behavioral, and physiological consequences down the road as an adult.
Dr. Miller’s mainstay opinion identifies/labels negative and abusive thought patterns and discipline as the ‘Poisonous Pedagogy’, with the parent as master and the child as being imbecilic, with the parents always right and shielded from criticism as to how they treat the child. ‘Spare the rod and spoil the child’ (i.e., use of frequent spankings) is the dominant philosophy, for the ‘child’s own good’. Severity and coldness hold supreme, to show the child that kindness and tenderness threaten it and the parent’s authority.
Healing Strategies: The Overarching Healing Theme is Awareness: (1) of our own childhood past and how its residual effects may very well be negatively impacting our adult life; (2) awareness of our surrounding environment and others around us that we interact with, that their strange behaviors towards us could well reflect their own negative child-abused past; (3) awareness to be totally open to all possibilities for healing adult effects of early-in-life adversities; (4) awareness that a Higher Power exists and is within each of us via our ‘Soul’, that can help us overcome any adult effects from early-in-life adversities.
Strategy #1, Spirituality- Faith/Belief in an all-good ‘Higher Power’, ‘Infinite Source’, or ‘God’ that underlies the entire structure of the living and non-living Universe, which is not necessarily associated with any human-borne faith, denomination, organization, or set of ‘established’ beliefs. The author is convinced that some sort of faith/belief in a ‘Higher Power’ is essential for facilitating full and complete healing from any adult carry-overs from early-on-in-life sustained mistreatment (of any sort). This is because of the very stubborn and long-lasting ‘stigma’ after-effects from the former abuse which very often remain embedded in the victim’s mind for their remaining lifetime. While healing is possible without spirituality, it may not be complete, with long-lasting negative ‘residual’ effects remaining throughout adulthood.
Uell Anderson indicates that the good news of Jesus is that the kingdom of God is within each of us (via ‘Soul’), and is composed of perfect, Infinite, Unconditional Love. Through awareness of this, each of us can reach into this inner sanctum of perfection and love to help heal ourselves. If we can just believe that the Infinite is all-good, that all negative talk of Hellfire and damnation for many of us at the end of our lives is all ‘human borne’ fear and non-truth. Instead, what awaits us is a Higher Entity consisting of completely open, loving hands who will welcome us instead of judging us for what we did or didn’t do in this life.
Strategy #2, Our Inner Child Cries Out for Healing– If we have come from an abusive early-in-life past, our own inner child cries out that it wants to be released and re-created into a happy, untrammeled child, without the constant worry and fear over the next suspicions, angry words, accusations, or punishments without justification that were often headed our way during childhood. In my own case, my mother had a difficult pregnancy carrying me and never ceased to remind me of that during my earliest years.
As adults now, it is suggested that we should feel sorry for our inner child that had to suffer so much debasement and mistreatment, and sorry that we lacked back at that time the adult maturity and awareness to help rescue it. We need to offer a complete apology to our inner child for these unavoidable indiscretions that we really could not avoid due to being so young and unaware of the complexity of why we were being mistreated. We need to claim back the happiness that was denied to us and re-enliven that long-lost child as one who was then and is now, wholly deserving of being treated as a tower of absolute love. (Refer to Meditation 6 in the ‘Meditations’ portion of the website, ‘My Inner Child Cries Out for Healing through the Voice, Power, and Love of ‘Infinite Spirit’)
Strategy #3, Promoting a Positive State-of-Mind Now, despite a Negative Past– The Law of the Universe is that ‘like seeks (or seeds) the like’. Positive thinking (e.g., I AM (or I am) healthy, I AM abundant) brings on these things, and negative thinking (I AM sick, or I AM poor) brings on these. All negative thoughts, acts, violence, war, and yes child abuse, are all predicated on negative thinking and fear, and according to the authors reviewed in Ch. 10, we all need to do our upmost to think all positive and dissuade all that is negative. Man is the principal creator of positive or negative thinking and its consequence, i.e., we can either create a ‘heaven on earth’ or a ‘hell on earth’—it is purely our choice via ‘free will’. Uell Anderson claims that the conscious human mind (via ego) associates with physical bodily survival, and this generates ‘prompters’ or negative feelings, such as: lack, fear, unhappiness, guilt, doubt, and loneliness—things that restrict us from positive power of the Infinite, which is Love.
Neville Goddard suggests that ‘I AM’ as being the self-definition or the name of ‘Source’ or ‘God’, which is the awareness of being, or the center of consciousness. ‘I AM’ healthy renders just that, and I AM weak, sick, or tired renders these things. Let the weak say ‘I AM’ strong (Joel 3:10). The body is an emotional filter that bears unmistakable marks of prevalent emotions. Taking Uell Anderson’s magic words ‘You Are God’ with Jesus’s magic words ‘I AM’ (the name of God), and combining them as ‘I AM’, and combining this with five other magic word groups: (1) ‘Infinite Power’; (2) ‘Infinite Warmth’; (3) ‘Infinite Perfection and Clarity’; (4) ‘Infinite Love and Peace’; and (5) ‘throughout my Being’, gives us: ‘I AM Infinite Power, Warmth, Perfection, Clarity, Love, and Peace throughout my Being’, providing a very powerful tool for whatever we may want to ask from our Infinite Source, e.g., healing from an illness, or from after-effects of abuse. This sends a powerful message from the conscious to the subconscious mind (the ‘Universal Mind’/or ‘God’) which, based on the person’s strength of faith in the healing process, sets into motion the process to convert the ‘I AM’ wish statement into reality in that person’s life. It is even better for the person to assume (and declare) that the wish has already been fulfilled.
#4, Awareness, Feelings, and Emotional Release from Our Past– From Dr. Alice Miller, Neville, and the author’s works, each of us needs to become fully aware and conscious of our childhoods, and when there was repeated abuse, to become fully cognizant of how that abuse has negatively impacted our follow-up adult lives. We need to feel free to admit this to ourselves. Awareness and self-expression of associated feelings from our childhoods are prime pathways for healing leftover residuals in adult life from past early-in-life sustained traumas. We must have the willingness to freely express and release these locked-up emotions. From Neville’s works, human feelings are the doorway to the ‘Soul’ or that infinitesimal perfect piece of Love that lies within each of us. Expression of feelings gets us the fastest there. Awareness of feelings with their pathway to our ‘Soul’ or Infinite part, as well as the actual release of those feelings thru expression, are prime pathways for healing in adult life from past early-in-life traumas.
How we release feelings/emotions in expression include the following: (1) discussion or sharing these with a sympathetic counselor, or even a relative or close friend; (2) preparing a written diary or chronicle which fully describes one’s past early-in-life experiences, particularly related to the abuse, with an emphasis on expressing past and present resultant feelings from it; (3) from my own example of awareness and subsequent feelings from emotional impacts of mother’s harassing (emotional) treatment of me with lack of love, sharply contrasting with the emotional impacts of unconditional Love I received from a waitress at age 7, which provided me with an emotional ‘Guide’ during my adult years to find new true love opportunities; (4) my own feelings from the film “Polar Express” with its theme song ‘If You Will Only Believe’, which re-enervates the spirit of Christmas, which for me was the only time of the year during my childhood when there was sustained happiness.
#5, Reprogramming of the Human Mind Toward Healing- From an oft quote, ‘God (or Infinite Spirit) helps those who help themselves, early-in-life misfortunes often immobilize a person as an adult to have emotions ‘locked-within’ their unconscious mind, preventing them from doing anything consciously such as expressing or releasing their emotions to ‘free themselves’ from the mental prison they find themselves in. That is, the victim cannot consciously see the ‘forest for the trees’ until awareness of their past oppressions with their adult effects emerges in a conscious fashion and thereby awakens them. Once this happens, the former victim must repeatedly make a convincing argument with determination (intent) that the agony of the past is gone, no longer relevant, and will not return. No one else, i.e., a counselor or friend can do this for the victim! At the same time, the former victim needs to be clearly aware that negative and destructive adult carryovers from difficult childhoods represent remnants of repressed painful memories from past abuse resurfacing presently in their mind as negative urges to lash out and hurt on others or themselves.
The ego-based feelings of ’poor me’, or ‘have pity on me’, or ‘makeup urges to hurt others because of past abuse must (with intent) be consciously and repeatedly quelled and snuffed out and replaced with the positive feeling of happiness that the past is gone and will not return. This would include the prison of biological bonding of child to parent. It is now truly great to be finally ‘free’ of all burdens and bad effects from past parenting and to be independent, happy, and joyfully looking forward to ‘the new dawn of day’ consisting of a lifetime of enjoyment of having fun and doing productive things with oneself and others.
Examples of ‘reprogramming’ of the mind include:
(A) Fr. John Bettridge advice: (1) “We were so consumed by those huge persons who towered over us when we were so little, and absorbed everything good and bad from them, with the ‘bad stuff’ dramatically following and affecting us into our adult lives”; (2) “Despite our difficult past, can we get up and move on?”; (3) “Once a person becomes fully aware of the past and its effects, they can choose to change by ‘re-direction’ or becoming ‘more positive and loving toward themselves first, and then others”.
(B) Brother Andre of Montreal (early 20th century) and Jesus of Nazareth (2,000 years ago) both emphasized to the people whom they were trying to help heal: “to forget about their past inner sorrows, weaknesses (‘sins’ or mistakes), afflictions, worries, and pain and instead focus on the inner sanctum of perfection and all-goodness (i.e., ‘Soul’) that existed within each of them”.
(C) Paramahansa Yogananda, (India early 1900s): stated that (1) “God endowed each individual with (potential) faith, free will, conscious reason, and common sense to help themselves from all suffering”; or (2) “God needs each person’s own God-given power to heal themselves”; or (3) “the strength of faith in the power of mind over body is key to producing a self-cure”.
(D) Erich Von Daniken in ‘Miracle of the Gods’- Numerous accounts exist going back thousands of years of people coming to a special healing place or sanctuary of dedication to facilitating healing via autosuggestion- “a repeated suggestion to oneself of a wish or desire arising within one’s own mind, focusing on a narrow point, to affect one’s thinking and bodily functions”,(e.g., devotion to Mary, or another personage, or the curing/healing itself),” Examples of places/healers included:(1) Thebes in Ancient Egypt (Amphiraos); (2) Temples to ‘Apollo’ in Ancient Greece; (3) Temple at Epidaurus in Southern Greece (‘Aesciepius’); (4) Jesus of Nazareth; (5) Lourdes in Southern France; (6) Brother Andre of Montreal.
#6, Finding True Love Opportunities Again– (A) from Dr. Bruce Perry– He suggests that the former abuse victim develop a network of loving/trusting/supporting individuals who can understand what the victim has gone thru during their childhood years, and provide them with true love, understanding, and consolation over what they have endured. In this regard, the network can be upstarted by focusing on developing a loving relationship with one sympathetic individual who can help the victim to find a network of mutually loving and supporting folks. (B) from this work’s author, it is suggested that for those past victims who were denied true unconditional love in their earliest years, or who have lost love more recently in their adult lives, for them to find whatever amenable social circles that are available and actively seek new unconditional love opportunities to replace past love-denied realities.
The author further suggests that true, unconditional love opportunities are enhanced through each loving partner’s conscious awareness that their own love desire touches the perfect and infinitesimal Loving piece of ‘Soul’ within themselves, and that that can be shared with the perfect Loving piece of ‘Soul’ of their partner, which will enhance true love in the relationship or partnership.
#7. Reviewing the Significance of Near-Death Experiences– folks that have experienced Near Death Experiences (NDEs) by encountering the other side (spiritually via ‘Soul’) describe its incredible euphoric veil and cradle of Infinite Love and goodness. Each NDE person reviewed within this work had a life-threatening condition that was completely healed upon return to this life. Each was advised to return to this life, that this was the best place to be at this stage of their existence, and that the mind and bodily senses and feelings are an incredible dimension not available back in the Infinite State. Each learned that fear in this life and overcoming it was the greatest priority leading to greater happiness in this life. One cannot be afraid (with fear) and have untrammeled true love at the same time. None of us were born evil, bad, or violent, nor did any of us come into this life to be abused or mistreated as small children. Rather we all came into this life in a perfect state, but via human ego and its imperfection in this life, our experiences with their effects from the prior Infinite State have become eroded in so many ways.
#8. Education on Raising Children to Avoid Abuse–This is an individual as well as a collective tool and theme that is global in scope which is mentioned in Chapter 6. Namely, public education focuses on the family and how to raise children properly without violence and abuse, with respect shown toward the child as if it were an equal and a valuable member of the family and society at large. This needs to be done on a worldwide basis, in all cultures.
This can start with basic courses or modules on ‘marriage and the family’ type offerings in high schools, community colleges, and four-year colleges. These courses or modules would specifically cover concepts discussed already in Chapters 4 and 5, by Bruce Perry, MD, and Alice Miller, Ph.D., and would in a positive way teach skills to students for proper child rearing without abuse. This would include proper discipline strategies to utilize with the growing infant-child that are non-abusive, plus other positive enlightening skills and knowledge on child development that a young parent needs to know. Also, the tv, radio, and media need to continue to play an increasing role in discussing child abuse, the damage that it does, and positive methodologies that young parents need to know to better gear them to raise their children in a non-abusive atmosphere.
#9, Focusing on the Present- Time is only realistic within this worldly life, but does not exist in the Infinite State, which means we should bring the emphasis on the past and the future into the present by strictly living and thinking in the ‘now’. We can best practice emphasizing the present by doing or imagining some activity best enjoyed, (e.g., going to or imagining some beautiful scenic place like a beach by the ocean, by a lake, or a mountain overlook), and clearly focusing on this pleasurable visit in a present continuing sense. And, as the seconds and minutes tick by, through imagination, extending the enjoyment of this activity at the same time recognizing that there is no past, nor future, just the present (in-time) activity to enjoy and that’s the best there is!
Everything in the Infinite State happens simultaneously and eternally. We here in the worldly state get closest to the simultaneous, eternal state by focusing on an activity in the present state or time that we are in. Focus on the present (in-time) sense enervates eternal or simultaneous energy, and this connects with energy within our infinite ‘Soul’ translating into an elated, heightened feeling of awareness, giving us greater bodily pleasure and joy in the activity that we are engaged in. Even when we engage in mundane or boring tasks, focusing on the present, helps us to better complete the task in a happier mode of feeling.
#10, Meditation– Chapter 16 introduces us to the science of meditation which consists of a variety of reflective processes that help bring the mind off its daily routine of typical earthly dealings into a profile of reflection with quietude. Meditation awakens one to deeper, spiritual levels through the stillness of the body and mind through regular routine practice. Taking time daily to go within and access pure awareness brings one from activity to silence, from individuality to universality. Meditation represents a bath of the mind, allowing it to be refreshed and rekindled. This process increases one’s capacity for peace, love, well-being, and happiness through creativity. Regular time spent in stillness and silence can open one up to the real depth of Universal essence and consciousness which lies within each of us. It should be noted that the historical personages, of Henry Wordsworth Longfellow, and Henry David Thoreau, were both emphatic on the need for quiet space and time on a regular basis for every person to reflect my connection to their Infinite part (‘Soul’) within themselves.
Chapter 17 presents twenty-four (24) different meditations which are oriented to worldly and/or spiritual themes and strategies to help people heal from past childhood traumas or any other life traumas.
See the ‘Meditations’ portion of the website, ‘Part I’ for select samples of 7 of the total 24 meditations in “Love and the Infinite, Healing from Childhood”.
The 24 Meditations are Grouped into the Following 7 Categories:
- Getting Us in the Mood for Meditation- 2 meditations
- Past Abuses Suffered- 4 meditations
- Finding/Manifesting God and Love in this Life- 4 meditations
- The Power of Imagination to Change the Past- 1 meditation
- The Power Within for Healing- 2 meditations
- Fear from Childhood Abuse & Traumas that Reappear in Adult Life- 1 meditation
- Finding Peace and Healing-10 meditations
The Book Concludes with 12 Inspirational Final Notes:
1. Child Sexual Abuse (of young boys and girls)
2. Helping Others, Along with Myself overcome past abuse
3. ‘Other Side’ Crossover Influences: Multi-Love Urges
Personality Differences, and Others
4. Did Mankind’s Imagination Create ‘Evil’, ‘Satan’ (the
‘Devil’), and ‘Hell’?
5. Lacking Early-in-Life Closeness with Mother
6. Infinite Love Reverberates
7. Release of Inherited Primeval Influences from the Past
8. Keeping Focus on the Positive
9. Effect of both Fear and Hurt on human life
10. I am Finally Free, Free, Free
11. Infinite Wisdom and Forgiveness
12. Final Note, incl. author’s healing strategies going forward
Thoughts and Reflections on Inspirational Final Notes: any person needs to face their own past situation and admit first and foremost to themselves exactly what their childhood situation was like. The best measuring ‘stick’ or ‘gage’ for this is the relative happiness they feel internally within themselves at this adult stage of their lives. If this is less than acceptably happy and satisfying, a more careful look inside at memories and feelings from their former early-in-life days needs to ensue. This can be done before any outside therapy is sought or discussed with or admittance to others. If outside help or counseling is desired, suggestions on getting proper help therapy from an appropriate person are offered in this work or can be obtained from other counseling sources.
A person’s feelings on the matter are very important to focus upon. Each of us needs to first see by investigating and disclosing our past (to ourselves), feel just what this means to each of us, and then act in any helpful manner that positively addresses the feelings to orient ourselves toward a future of greater happiness, fearlessness, and more fulfilling activities e.g., new love opportunities with other. And, if it is one’s choice, an attempt at identification with the Infinite Spirit.
From a worldly standpoint, the best and most useful way of utilizing feelings about each of our pasts (i.e., childhood) is to ask that child inside the older adult just how it feels now, and if it feels sad, depressed, oppressed, in angst, or just waiting ‘to come alive’, then we (each) must accept and allow (via surrender) to those facts, and do what we need to do to resurrect that unhappy child and make it happy and glad to be alive.
From a spiritual standpoint, each of us needs to call on that infinitesimal piece within, our inner sanctum (our ‘Soul’) with all of its goodness, perfection, clarity, and Infinite Love, to ‘blossom forth’ into our physical being (body and mind) to infuse healing from all the leftover hurt from our sufferings of the past, with clear awareness and recognition that the past with all its ‘woes’ and ‘oppressors’ is gone and won’t return. Also, awareness that each of us did survive in a potentially good ‘state of mind’ and are here in the present, and that this best sets us up for a future of true peace and happiness while we are still in this life.
We (each) need to make the determination to go through efforts in thinking, feeling, and doing differently to transform whatever difficult past we had into a happier and more prosperous future. Through these efforts, we are clearly re-programming our minds to think, feel, and experience differently, namely creating a happier and more joyful lifetime future.
-Bill Dunn Jr.
Love and the Infinite 