“Love and the Infinite, My Memoirs”
A New England Scholar writes about his spiritual quest and awakening from early childhood abuse by parents who suffered from emotional challenges. Raised in a seemingly normal Catholic middle-class home and family in Massachusetts, near urban Boston Dunn describes parental measures for strict discipline and how it was the order of the day, with spankings and thrashings carried out by his father under ‘orders’ from his mother. For Dunn, there was an almost constant atmosphere of fear and punishment. He was shuttled between schools: back and forth between public schools, military schools, and various Catholic schools where corporal punishment was the ‘regular order of the day.’ He sums up his childhood with two words on collective feelings from all of his childhood: total humiliation.
In writing this book, the author’s goal is to help people that have endured their own sufferings of abuse by the hands of another and to help them unravel any damaging and lasting effects that these early traumas have had on their subsequent adult lives. Damaging effects from early childhood traumas are very complex. Dunn gives give people practical and simple guidance toward healing with inspiration, insight, and creation of one’s spiritual reawakening.
As a parent and husband, Dunn admits that he withdrew at times in his own first marriage and raising his children with that somewhat tattered upbringing and how those negative effects carried over into his adult life.
The suffering wrought on so many children in the world at the hands of parents and caretakers renders unconscionable and dramatic effects that are often lifelong. The tragedy from these effects is that with most people’s lives there is often no exit from the damaging, negative effects throughout adulthood resulting from these early sufferings. Through a series of spiritual strategies, he offers help to deal with the after-effects of child abuse. “Love and The Infinite, My Memoirs,” by Bill Dunn Jr. invites readers to free one’s bonds and fears from the distant past abuse to a life with healing through the power of awareness and guided meditations to enlighten and awake a new consciousness through a higher power.
Highlights/Summary of “Love and the Infinite, My Memoirs” by Bill Dunn Jr.
Preparatory Thought/ Meditation: Can you fathom through imagination and awareness, of something so sweet, fresh, precious, innocent and little, in all its loving beauty and glory, having just come from the warm protective cocoon of its mother’s womb? Having just arrived here in a totally new, threatening, and strange place, towered over by images of large and very strange-looking beings, with the loving touch/contact of one image in particular (mother) and total dependence on her for ‘nourishment’, acceptance, trust, kind treatment, and unending love. Before mother’s womb, this tiny packet of love’s prior existence was embellished in Infinite Love’s glory, euphoric pleasure, acceptance, and permanence, without any concern, fear, nor doubt for its’ protection there, nor any possibility for Love’s loss, denial, or even question. Things seem so different here: this newly arrived tiny package does not feel safe nor have that ‘assurance of love’, nor protection that it always felt and had before in its’ Infinite state of existence. This new little being feels ‘separated’ and ‘alone’ in the Universe, at the same time very ‘fearful’. Indeed, this seems so strange and scary. Besides, in its’ present very small and undeveloped physical state, it is unable to do anything to sustain or protect itself at all. See me as I am now: so little, helpless, fearful, cold, hungry…things that were not true back in my past Infinite State: instead back there I had all the comforts and was surrounded with unquestioned love. I find myself here crying out so very often, feeling so lonely, threatened, and fearful in an alien world. Part of me (my Infinite Spirit) reflects on and calls forth from whence I have recently come: to please return, restore, protect, and love me as I once was…
To Myself: Though my intent was to write this work to help others, I found out along the way that it was also to love and help myself. I must re-program my mind away from the joyless early-in-life past, toward the twilight years of my life that manifests joy for the little child still within me that has survived all these years! I must, & AM remaking that lost child into a happy one!
The Background Behind Child Abuse
‘Love and the Infinite, My Memoirs’, basically explores the many dimensions of Love: (1) conditional (if you do this and that for me I’ll love you, but if you don’t I won’t) vs. (2) unconditional (I accept you for all that you are, no matter what you have endured, what you have, or what you’ve done), vs. (3) Infinite (a love that is immensely greater than any love on earth, that is limitless, boundless, untrammeled, and everlasting, which never can be taken away like love on earth). The loves of this life (conditional & unconditional, incl. romantic) depend upon a giver and a receiver, meaning that love here in this life can be taken away in an instant, whereas Universal Infinite Love always was, is, and will be, & doesn’t have to be ‘earned’ or ‘lost’ like here on Earth.
This is a work that focuses upon the good and kind love called parental or maternal love that all of us are supposed to have upon our entry into this life as babies, infants, and children, but this sharply contrasts for many of us with the reality of love-denied in our earliest years via abuse and mistreatment, manifesting physical &/or emotional traumas with devastating after-effects often sustained throughout our child and adulthood years. The work delves into both worldly and spiritual healing solutions to adult damages resulting from childhood traumas suffered during the victim’s early years, and really focuses on the need to completely re-program the very complex to understand negative- oriented thought patterns that become inculcated in the developing child’s human mind from this abuse, which often destructively follow these victims well into their adult years.
Of course, we want to give all good credit to those of us who came from basically good parentage, where we were treated throughout our childhood experience with all due respect, love, and appreciation as to just who we were back then. Meaning that despite being little and growing, we were treated as if we were full grown adults with all due respect, and were not denigrated for being small, learning, and evolving, though we were still achieving reaching that level as children. A happy child from a well- treated background radiates upon the world a happy, trustful, and productive attitude, which in turn radiates back to the person as positive reward in feelings of usefulness and appreciation.
But for many of us others, this clearly was not the case, as the child (as a child) went through a long track record of various abusive experiences during its early years that very clearly did not make it happy, nor set it up for an adult life where it automatically radiated a love and kindness clearly evident by others, or to itself. Conflict, &/or confusion, fear, angst, lack of peacefulness, rage, and even physical-mental health problems often overshadow many adult lives for those who lacked fair parental treatment during their earliest years.
I can distinctly remember when I was age four thru seven, lying in my bunk-bed worrying and fearful over Mother’s next set of difficult, criticizing, unloving words that were sure to be headed my way. Mother had a difficult pregnancy carrying me, and never ceased to remind me of that throughout childhood, plus she suffered over my father’s escapades outside her marriage which she seemed also to take out on me. I was intensely fearful over the next negative, critical, or ‘corrective’ words that were sure to be coming my way, since I clearly knew Mother was not happy with me at all, in that she always seemed to be angry and cross with me. The slightest thing would set her off negatively toward me. Dad would often warn me: ‘Billy, she’s on the warpath again after you, look out’! Subsequently, phobic fears, angst & unrealistic imaginations followed me throughout my adult life: (1) dreaded fear of certain strong-willed females I have crossed paths with; (2) fear while being away on a vacation, that something bad would happen to the place I lived in; (3) imagining that all sorts of folks (e.g., the police) were constantly watching me; (4) imaginative and unrealistic love scenarios.
When we are very young, we are most vulnerable to picking up patterns from memories because, from a survival standpoint, we are most prone, via evolution processes, to involuntarily imbed behaviors that supposedly best help us to survive and develop into as adults. The reality is that early-on-in-life experiences (childhood) occur at the same time that the imperfect human brain is rapidly developing towards its full capabilities, creating an ‘inculcation’ memory process, whereby repeated and dominant early-in-life experiences, good or bad, become ‘locked-in’ or ‘hard-wired’ into each child’s developing brain, producing a ‘tonality’ or ‘impression of life’ (up or down), significantly impacting a person’s thinking and feelings throughout their entire adult lifetime. 3 words typify the after-effects of child abuse: (1) Stigma (abuse sticking mentally with the person for life); (2) Insidiousness (sneaks up on the person); (3) Denial (complete turning away from past realities)
Human evolution developed a process in the (imperfect) human brain from primal-based life over the last million or so years up to the very recent past to respond to an almost constant-state threat to life survival. Responses to sustained fear-based trauma threats were particularly inculcated into child- rearing practices then, which were immediate, non-negotiable and often brutal, which over eons have been carried over into modern child- rearing practices. Although modern man has much less constant- state threats to life, primal responses to fear can be ‘re-awakened’, ‘re-fired, or ‘re-charged’ under modern-state threats of repeated/sustained childhood traumas or abuse. These primal-based responses often stay lit in an ‘ember-burning mode’, just below conscious awareness long after the modern trauma threat has ended, only to ‘re-surface’ years later in the person’s life as troubled/negative/or violent tendencies (e.g., PTSS) or reactions to ordinary life situations, as if the person were still engaged with sustained threat conditions back in their past abusive state, or back in the primitive state eons ago.
Mistreatment of children is a worldwide phenomenon amongst all classes of people and cultures, both in the past and present, involving literally billions of people through human history. This topic is hugely denied, avoided, and pushed aside by most all people, classes, societies, and cultures throughout all of history up to the present-day. Why? (1) The 4th Commandment, ‘Honor thy Father and Mother’ (no matter what they do to you); (2) The rights of power of the parent over the child; (3) Biological attachment (origin) of children to parents; (4) Fear and pain for the victim over revealing and facing the follow up emotional pain from the former physical &/or mental abuse; (5) The ‘Family’ as the ‘Sacred Cow’ in all of civilization.
Two experts who have worked on and written about child abuse issues are discussed in the work: (1) Dr. Bruce Perry, and (2) Dr. Alice Miller. Dr. Perry’s mainstay opinion is that fear and repeated trauma seriously affect the developing child’s brain, and very often this reflects the world they were brought up in: fear, chaos, and trauma which alters normal development of neural systems that have to respond to the unnatural stresses, causing life dependent alterations with normal responses to threats, which often leads to serious emotional, cognitive, behavioral and physiological consequences down the road as an adult. Dr. Miller’s mainstay opinion identifies/labels negative and abusive thought patterns and discipline as the ‘Poisonous Pedagogy’, with the parent as master and the child as being imbecilic, with the parents always right and shielded from criticism of how they treat the child. ‘Spare the rod and spoil the child’ (i.e., frequent spankings) are the dominant philosophy, for the ‘child’s own good’. Severity and coldness holds supreme, to show the child that kindness/tenderness threatened it and the parent’s authority
Healing Strategies: The OVERARCHING HEALING THEME is Awareness: (1) of our own childhood past and how its’ residuals may very well be negatively impacting our adult life; (2) awareness of our surrounding environment and others around us that we interact with, that their strange behaviors towards us might reflect their own child-abused past; (3) to be totally open to all possibilities for healing adult effects of early-in-life adversities; (4) that a Higher Power exists, and is within each of us as ‘Soul’, that can help us overcome any adult effects from early-in-life adversities.
Strategy #1, Spirituality- Faith/ Belief in an all-good, perfect, and healing ‘Higher Power’, or ‘Infinite Source’, or ‘God’ which underlies the entire structure of the living and non-living Universe, that is not necessarily associated with any particular human-borne faith, denomination, organization, or set of ‘established’ beliefs’. The author is convinced that some sort of faith/belief in a ‘Higher Power’ is; and Archangels essential for facilitating full and complete healing from any adult carry-overs from early-on-in-life sustained mistreatment (of any sort), because of the very stubborn and long-lasting ‘Stigma’ after-affects from the former abuse (due to the human brain-mind), which very often last for entire remaining lifetimes. While healing is possible ‘sans (without) spirituality’, it may not be complete, with long-lasting negative ‘residual’ effects remaining throughout adulthood. Uell Anderson indicates that the good news of Jesus is that the kingdom of God is within each of us, (via ‘Soul’), and is comprised of perfect, Infinite, Unconditional Love; that via awareness of this, each of us can reach into this inner sanctum of perfection and love to help heal ourselves. If we can just believe that the Infinite is all good, that all talk of Hellfire and damnation for many of us at the end of our lives here along with all of its negative thinking is all ‘human borne’ bunk: that what awaits all of us who try their best to promote good at the end of our lives here, is a Higher Entity who has open totally loving hands who will welcome us instead of judging us for what we didn’t do. See Afternote # 5 near the end of these notes for the author’s latest research on Guardian Angel and Archangel healing.
Strategy #2, ‘Our Inner Child Cries Out for Healing’– If we have come from an abusive early-in-life past, our own inner child cries out…that it wants to be released and re-created into a happy, untrammeled child, without the constant worry and fear over the next suspicions, angry words, accusations, or punishments without justification that were certain to be headed our way throughout the days of childhood. In my own case, my mother had a difficult pregnancy carrying me and never ceased to remind me of that during my earliest years. As adults now, it is suggested that we should feel so sorry for our inner child that it had to suffer so much debasement and mistreatment, and also so sorry that we lacked back at that time the adult maturity and awareness to help rescue it. We need to offer (with repetition) a complete apology to our inner child for these unavoidable indiscretions that we really could not avoid due to being so young and unaware of the complexity of why we were being mistreated. We need to claim back the happiness that was denied to us, and re-enliven that long lost child as one who was then, and is now, wholly deserving of being treated as a tower of absolute love…(see in the Meditation section of this website: ‘My Inner Child Cries Out for Healing through the Voice, Power, and Love of ‘Infinite Spirit’)
Strategy #3, ‘Promoting a Positive State-of-Mind Now, Despite a Negative Past’– The Law of the Universe- is that ‘like seeks (and/or seeds) the like’. Positive thinking (e.g., I AM healthy, I AM abundant) brings on these things, and I AM sick, or I AM poor brings on these. All negative thoughts, acts, violence, war, and yes, child abuse, are all predicated on negative thinking and fear, and according to the authors reviewed in Ch. 10, we all need to do our upmost to think all-positive and dissuade all that is negative. Man is the principal creator of positive or negative thinking and its consequence, i.e., we can either create a heaven on earth or a hell on earth—it is purely our choice (via ‘free will’). Uell Anderson claims that the conscious human mind (via EGO) associates with physical bodily survival, & this generates ‘prompters’ (or negative feelings), e.g., lack, fear, unhappiness, guilt, doubt, loneliness—things that restrict us from the (positive) power of the Infinite, which is Love.
Neville Goddard suggests: ‘I AM’ as being the self- definition of ‘Source’ or ‘God’, which is awareness of being, or the center of consciousness. ‘I AM’ healthy renders just that, & I AM weak, sick, or tired renders these things. Let the weak say ‘I AM’ strong (Joel 3:10). The body is an emotional filter that bears unmistakable marks of prevalent emotions. Taking Uell Anderson’s magic words ‘You Are God’ with Jesus’s magic words ‘I AM’ (the name of God), and combining them as ‘I AM’, then combining this with five other magic word groups: ‘Infinite Power’; ‘Infinite Warmth’; ‘Infinite Perfection and Clarity’; ‘Infinite Love and Peace’; and ‘throughout my Being’, gives us: ‘I AM Infinite Power, Warmth, Perfection, Clarity, Love, and Peace throughout my Being’, providing a very powerful tool for whatever we may want to ask from our Infinite Source, e.g., healing from an illness, or from after-effects of abuse. This sends a powerful message from the conscious to the subconscious mind (‘Universal Mind’/or ‘God’) which, based on the person’s strength of faith in the healing process, sets into motion the process to convert the ‘I AM wish statement’ into reality in the person’s life. It is even better for the person to assume that the wish has already been fulfilled.
#4, ‘Awareness, Feelings, and Emotional Release from Our Past’– From Dr. Alice Miller, Neville, and the Author’s works, each of us need to become fully aware & conscious of our childhoods, and where there was repeated abuse, to become fully cognizant of how that abuse has negatively impacted our followup adult lives and to clearly feel free to admit this to ourselves. Awareness and self-expression of associated feelings from our childhoods (actual release of feelings thru expression) are prime pathways for healing leftover residuals in adult life from past early-in-life sustained traumas. We must have the willingness to freely express and release these locked-up emotions. From Neville’s works, (human) feelings are the doorway to the ‘Soul’ or that Infinitesimal Perfect Piece of Love that lies within each of us. Expression of feelings gets us the fastest there. Awareness of feelings with their pathway to our ‘Soul’ or Infinite part, as well as the actual release of those feelings thru expression, are prime pathways for healing in adult life from past early-in-life traumas. Examples of release of feelings/emotions include: (1) discussion/sharing with a sympathetic counselor, or even a relative or close friend; (2) preparing a written diary or chronicle which fully describes one’s past early-in-life experiences, particularly with the abuse, with an emphasis on expressing past and present resultant feelings from the abusive treatments; (3) my own awareness and subsequent feelings from emotional impacts of mother’s harassing (emotional) treatment of me with lack of love, sharply contrasting with the emotional impacts of unconditional Love I received from a waitress at age 7, providing me with a ‘Soul- Guide’ map in my quest to re-find new true love opportunities; (4) my own awareness and feelings from the film “Polar Express” with its accompanying theme song ‘If You Will Only Believe’, resurrecting positive, hopeful memories at Christmas, the only time of the year where there was a sustained spirit of happiness during my childhood.
#5 ‘Reprogramming of the Human Mind Toward Healing’- From an oft quote- ‘God (or Infinite Spirit) helps those who help themselves’: that early-in-life misfortunes often immobilize a person in the present (adult) sense to have emotions ‘locked-within’ their unconscious mind, preventing them from doing anything consciously (choice-wise) such as expressing or releasing their emotions to ‘free themselves’ from the mental prison they find themselves in, i.e., the victim cannot consciously see the ‘forest for the trees’ until awareness of their past oppressions and their adult effects emerges in a conscious fashion and thereby awakens them. Once this happens, the former victim must repeatedly make the convincing argument with determination that the agony of the past is DONE, over-with, no longer relevant, and will never return. No one else, i.e., a counselor or friend, can do this for the victim! At the same time, the former victim needs to be clearly aware that negative & destructive adult carryovers from difficult childhoods represent remnants of primal-based responses to sustained fear developed from human life over eons of time from long ago.
The ego- based feelings of ‘psychic hurt’, or ’poor me’, or ‘have pity on me’, or ‘makeup desires against others’, or ‘the drive to be perfect’ because of the past abuse must be repeatedly and consciously quelled & snuffed out, and replaced with the positive feeling of happiness that the past is GONE & will never return (including the prison of biological bonding of child to parent), and that it is truly great now to be finally ‘free’ of ALL burdens and bad effects from past parenting, and to be independent, happy, & looking forward to ‘the new dawn of day’ consisting of a life of enjoyment of doing fun and productive things with oneself & others.
Examples of ‘reprogramming’ the mind are:
(A) from Fr. John Bettridge: “We were so consumed by those huge persons who towered over us when we were so little, and absorbed everything good and bad from them, with the ‘bad stuff’ dramatically following us into our adult lives”; “Despite our difficult past, can we get up and move on?”; “Once a person becomes fully aware of the past and its effects, they CAN CHOOSE to change by (re-directing) becoming ‘more positive & loving’ toward first themselves, and then others”.
(B) Brother Andre, Montreal (early 20th century) and Jesus of Nazareth (2,000 years ago): both emphasized to the people whom they were trying to help “to forget about their past inner sorrows, weaknesses, afflictions, worries, and pain, & instead focus on the inner sanctum of perfection and all-goodness (i.e., ‘Soul’) that lies within each of themselves”.
(C) Paramahansa Yogananda, (India early 1900s): that “God endowed each individual with (potential) faith, free will, conscious reason, and common sense to help themselves from all suffering”; i.e., “God needs each person’s own, (but God-given power), to heal themselves”; that “strength of faith in power of mind over body is key to producing a self-cure”.
(D) Erich Von Daniken in ‘Miracle of the Gods’- Numerous accounts exist going back thousands of years of persons coming to a special healing place/sanctuary of dedication to facilitate healing via autosuggestion- “repeated suggestion to oneself of a wish or desire arising within one’s own mind, focusing on a narrow point, to affect one’s thinking and bodily functions”,(e.g., devotion to Mary, a personage, or the curing/healing itself),” Examples of places/healers include:(1) Thebes in Ancient Egypt (Amphiraos); (2) Temples to ‘Apollo’ in Ancient Greece; (3) Temple at Epidaurus in So. Greece (‘Aesciepius’); (4) Jesus of Nazareth; (5) Lourdes in Southern France; (6) Brother Andre, Montreal).
#6, ‘Finding True Love Opportunities Again’– (A) from Dr. Bruce Perry– suggests that the former abuse victim develop a network of loving/ trusting/ supporting individuals who can understand what the victim has gone thru during their childhood years, and provide them with true love, understanding, and consolation for what they have endured. In this regard, the author suggests that this can be upstarted by focusing on developing a loving relationship with one sympathetic individual, who can help the victim to find a network of mutually loving & supporting folks. (B) From the Author, regarding past love withheld or denied, it is suggested that for those past victims who were denied true unconditional love in their earliest years, or who have lost love more recently in their adult lives, for them to ‘get out into whatever amenable social circles’ and actively seek/find new unconditional love opportunities to replace the love-denied realities of the past, that this is the main reason why we are here in this life on this planet! The author further suggests that true, unconditional love opportunities are enhanced by each loving partner’s awareness that their own love touches the perfect/infinitesimal piece of ‘Soul’ within themselves, which touches that (‘Soul’) of all the other love sharing partners.
#7. Reviewing the Significance of Near Death Experiences– folks that have experienced Near Death Experiences (NDEs) by encountering the other side (spiritually via ‘Soul’) describe its incredible euphoric veil and cradle of Infinite Love and goodness. Each NDE person reviewed within this work (plus many others not described in the work) had a life-threatening condition which was completely healed upon return to this life. Each was advised to return back to this life, that this was the best place to be at this particular stage of their existence, that the mind and bodily senses and feelings are an incredible dimension not available back in the Infinite State. Each learned that fear in this life and the overcoming of it was the greatest priority leading to greater happiness in this life. One cannot both have fear and untrammeled true love at the same time. None of us were born evil, bad, violent, rather we all came into this life in a perfect state, nor did any of us come into this life to be abused or mistreated as small children, but via human ego and its imperfection, our experiences with their effects from the prior Infinite State have become eroded in so many ways.
Twenty-three different meditations are offered in the work, which are oriented to finding our ‘Source’ and resultant spin-off healing from that ‘Source’ from past childhood traumas, or any other lifetime traumas.
2 meditations- Getting Us in the Mood for Meditation;
4 meditations- Dealing with Various Past Abuses Suffered;
3 meditations- Dealing with Finding/Manifesting God and Love in this Life;
2 meditations- Dealing with the Power of Imagination to Change the Past;
2 meditations- Dealing with the Power Within for Healing;
1 meditation- Dealing with Fear from Childhood Abuse & Traumas that Reappear in Adult Life;
9 meditations- Dealing with Finding Peace and Healing.
The book concludes with 12 different inspirational notes on important aspects of the work: (1) Child sexual abuse of young females particularly in underdeveloped lands; (2) Helping others, at the same time helping myself (the author) from after-effect ravages from prior child abuse; (3) Translation, surrender, and transformation leading to healing; (4) Explaining the author’s imaginative love scenarios; (5) Mankind’s imagination having created the ideas of Satan, evil, and hell: these do not exist in God’s Infinite Kingdom of perfection; (6) Lacking early-on-in-life closeness with Mother; (7) Closeness of Infinite State (perfection) to early-on in life child abuse in the earthly state, which can cause great difficulties down the road in an abuse victim’s adult life; (8) Keeping focus on the positive; (9) The effect of fear and hurt on human life; (10) Being finally free from the prison of a difficult childhood; (11) Infinite Wisdom and Forgiveness; (12) A final note, releasing ourselves from the negative past into positive Infinite Enlightenment while still in this life; (13) Strategies that the author himself carries into the future for his own continued healing.
5 Afternotes that the Author has added after completion of the main part of his work: (1) Why We Are Here in this Life– Despite whatever suffering many of us go through in this life, we are here to experience Love in the physical state with all its available emotions and senses, something we lacked back in the Infinite State. Here in this life, we basically experience both Conditional Love and Unconditional Love, with Unconditional Love coming as close as we will ever get here to Infinite Love. The experiences and contrasts of love experiences here are something we will carry with us (into Eternity) back to the Infinite State; (2) Explaining the rationale of why people returning from NDEs have differing memories and impressions about their particular NDE: basically explained due to the imperfect human brain and its processing of their particular NDE based upon their life experiences prior to their NDE; (3) Fear and its effects from mankind’s primal past over the last 1 million-plus years: in that we ‘inherit’ (in the human brain) characteristics of primitive, constant-state threats which emerge in modern mankind when sustained and threatening traumas (like child abuse) occur, generating fires of fear which stay lit when the traumas end, only to reappear as angst and fear in ordinary, less threatening modern situations, creating all sorts of negative social consequences for the formerly traumatized victim; (4) Reprogramming the human brain for a child abuse victim through application of Fr. John Bettridge’s idea of the power of awareness: that because the trauma is long- since over, we need not continue to operate under an umbrella of fear, that we can arise from the ashes of our negative past by being more positive by realizing that, via awareness, the traumas from our childhood have ended and are over, and that we can make the child within us now into a happy and un-oppressed child. (5) Creating an Infinite, Healing Relationship through One’s Guardian Angel and Selected Archangels– Each person has a Guardian Angel who has accompanied them through eons of time, who understands the person via invisible threads that connect them together with Universal Consciousness and purpose by collaborating quiet thoughts as if coming from someone else mysteriously, which have clarity and solid reasonable purpose making clear sense to the person. These messages help to influence us via small clues, inspirations, and thoughts, which are all mostly gentle and subtle. Additionally, 24 different Archangels from the ‘Tree of Life’ or ‘Zodiac can assist us in this life with our challenges and woes if we consciously connect with them via meditation, e.g., Raphael, being the Prime Facilitator of Healing on Earth, whom God had provided all the medical knowledge and where-with-all for healing human maladies on earth: ‘I AM the River of Divine Healing Flowing over the Earth’.
A final thought or reflection on these notes: is that the ‘reader’ must face their own situation and admit,first and foremost to themselves (only), exactly what their childhood situation was like. The best measuring ‘stick’ or ‘gage’ for this is the relative happiness they feel internally within themselves at this particular adult stage of their lives, and if this be less than acceptably happy and satisfying, a more careful inside look at memories and feelings from their former early-in-life days must ensue. This can be done before any outside therapy is sought, or discussion with or admittance to others, and if outside help or counseling is desired, suggestions on getting the proper help therapy from an appropriate person is offered in the work herein. One’s feelings on the matter are very important to focus upon. Each of us needs to first see by investigating and disclosing about our past (to ourselves), feel just what this means to each of us, and then act in any helpful manner that positively addresses the feelings to orient ourselves toward a future of greater happiness, fearlessness, and more fulfilling positive activities such as love opportunities with others; and if it is one’s choice, an attempt at identification with Infinite Spirit. From a worldly standpoint, the best and most useful way of utilizing feelings about each of our pasts’ (i.e., childhood) is to ask that child inside the older adult just how it feels now, and if it feels sad or depressed, oppressed, in angst, or just waiting ‘to come alive’, then we (each) must accept and allow (via surrender) to those facts, and do what we need to do to resurrect that unhappy child and make it happy and glad to be alive. From a spiritual standpoint, we (each of us) must call on that infinitesimal piece within, our inner sanctum (our ‘Soul’) with all of its goodness, perfection, clarity and Infinite Love, to ‘blossom forth’ into our physical being (body and mind) to infuse healing from all the leftover hurt from our suffering woes of the past, with the clear awareness and recognition that the past with all its’ woes along with the ‘oppressors’ is gone, that each of us did survive in a potentially good ‘state of mind’ and are here now in the present, and that best sets us up into a future of true peace and happiness while still in this life. We each must make that determination to go through the efforts to think, feel, and do differently to transform whatever difficult past we had into a more happy and prosperous future. Through these efforts, we are clearly re-programming our minds (brain) to think, feel, do, and experience differently: namely, a happier and more joyful lifetime mode.